I can’t promise this will be short, but I can promise this will be good.
So yesterday after failing miserably at an interview for a job I didn’t want, (you can ask me about it later) I went to my favorite coffee shop to read. Before I go any further I just want to encourage you with this: If you show up for God, He will show up for you. Be bold in your faith.
I also need to tell you about my dog: She is obsessed with toys. all toys. She is always ready to play. 100% focused.
Usually when sit down to I read I start with praying that God would speak to me in some way, big or small. And I’ll be honest its usually small, or I get distracted by someone walking a dog outside and completely miss what God is trying to tell me.
yesterday was different.
I was sitting at a coffee bar looking out the window after praying that I would hear Gods voice clearly. I started reading and immediately was overwhelmed by Gods presence over me. I felt like He was speaking to me through every line I was reading. I was underlining everything. I have been experiencing different fears this last week and I am just in desperate need of Gods guidance.
I enjoy people watching, especially when they are reading or writing and a smile glides across their face. So I wondered what the couple of men at the table to my left were thinking when I was smiling and nodding in agreement with that I was reading.
As I was packing up to leave, these men were too. I smiled at one and he asked what I was studying. I drew a blank. Im not study….God stopped my thoughts. “you are studying..” He said. I spoke up, “Gods word!” I had a short conversation with this guy named Bill and for the first time since surviving meningitis I felt the joy of the Lord in my heart and blurted out, “Yeah! Im really excited about my future!”
I felt great when I left. Filled to the brim with joy. But I had to pee. I drove home and took my dog out to pee and then went to the bathroom myself.
this is gonna real good so sit down and buckle up.
McCoy dropped her sushi toy on my lap. (yes as I was peeing) And ran to her ready position, in a play bow, eyes locked. barking in anticipation. and He spoke to me so clearly, “Do you see that?” “what, see what?” “she’s ready to catch it.” “yeah, she usually is” “did you get that though?” And it hit me like a ton of bricks. He spoke to me so clearly about what I had just experienced at the coffee shop.
When McCoy is ready to play, she’s all in. completely focused. Ready to catch it. And the Lord showed me this as myself being ready to catch what He is telling me. Are you getting this you guys?
I threw the toy and she caught it. I threw it second time and she missed it. The Lord said to me “when you’re busy running the other way trying to get ready for it, you’ll miss it. just stay still and focus. You will be ready.” ITS SO GOOD.
I was reminded in this conversation that I just need to be still, be focused and get ready to catch it. But if I’m trying too hard, running in the opposite direction I am going to miss it. The same is true if I’m going the other direction and am looking over my shoulder as if I’m ready but I might only catch part of it. I have to be all in. All in means all Him.
I was blown away at how God just spoke to me and wanted to share it with everyone I knew. I was running late to go take the dog I’m watching for a walk. In the short drive from my apartment to this house I was still very full of joy, and clearly hearing God talk to me.
I got the dog ready for his walk and felt like I could conquer the world. Like I could face any fear and survive unscathed. As we were walking, I was still in a deep conversation with God. We were talking about the similarities between me looking to Him for guidance, and how a dog looks (or should look) to their handler for guidance. I wish I could remember all the details of this 30 minute conversation so I could share them with you, but I don’t. So I will move on to the third thing that blew my mind on Thursday.
But first, some background information on this dog I was walking: His name is Maestro, He’s a 6 year old Portuguese water dog. He gets overly excited with other dogs and children.
We were coming to the turn around spot of our walk, and as we crossed the street I saw two little girls standing on the corner, and just beyond them on the next corner, a dog. I got a little nervous but remembered Maestro’s owner saying she just crosses the street when there are children or dogs. I thought ok, I’ll do that. As we crossed the street he saw the girls and whimpered like he wanted to play, I corrected him and we kept walking. Then I noticed the dog, now directly across the street from us, with no leash, and no human. I was filled with fear. “What if Maestro sees this dog? What will happen? Is this dog friendly? What if it’s not? I can’t break up a fight by myself!” I started praying out loud, “Oh dear God please don’t let Maestro see this dog, please give us a hedge of protection from this dog, please keep it away from us, AMEN!” We kept walking, and this dog kept pace with us but stayed across the street, stopping to sniff some bushes along the way. Each time it stopped I would pick up my walking pace to gain some distance. We got some good distance between us and I felt better. Until I turned around again to see that the dog had disappeared. The Lord spoke, “TURN AROUND” I stopped and turned, the dog was right behind us, trotting towards us. I ran. “Maestro lets go!” We ran faster. I turned to see it gaining on us and the Lord spoke again, “STOP” I stopped, turned, raised my hand to point at the dog, “uh uh! Stay!” The dog came to an abrupt halt, turned around and walked away.
That doesn’t happen, ever.
In my dog training experience I know you should never run from a dog you don’t know because it will 99% of the time chase you. You have to show your dominance over it. Give it a boundary.
My mouth fell open, I had just used the power of God within me to overcome a fear. That was literally chasing me. I was astonished. As a believer, I have always heard ‘you have the power of Jesus in you, you can use it.’ I have never used it like that. Or been aware enough to experience anything like that in my life. I started skipping and jumping, “hooooolllyyyyy cow, did that just happen?! WHAT was that! that was amazing!”
We walked the rest of the way home feeling completely covered by the presence of God, as if it was tangible. I had to tell someone about it. I called my mom but she was doing her breathing treatment, said she would call me back later. I called my sister and told her. She thought it was pretty cool. It was way more than cool.
I truly am so excited about my future, and what God has for me. I have never felt so much joy, except when I experienced that miracle in 2012 with meningitis and that joy faded because I didn’t do anything to keep it alive. I am fully aware of it now. And I am determined to keep it alive. I won’t let it go.
I love you guys, thank you from the bottom of my for reading my stuff. It means so much to me when you tell me you liked what I wrote or how it impacted you. Don be shy, let me know you read it and loved it or hated it.
see you soon!